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Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib seseorang itu, kalau seseorang itu tidak mengubah nasibnya sendiri

a person i know told me this. i was complaining about what i've become n how i hated my self and so on. i need some one to be there and remind me what i should and shouldn't do. i am that person who'll easily influenced by those around me. i keep on trying and failed too many times. there are times when i think i couldn't handle all these test anymore. but then i remembered reading a book which says ;

one will rewarded through how he faced his test. if he was pleased and patient, then Allah will pleased him. but if he was angry, restless, impatient, then Allah will wrath upon him.

and a friend of mine keep telling me that

good things come to those who wait patiently and prays

and here are some more :

orang yg berakal berbuat sabar pada hari pertama ditimpa musibah, sedangkan orang yg bodoh melakukannya setelah beberapa hari berlalu

okayy i belong on those who are stupid =='

see, it ain't easy to be good. it will cost you hell to change. the hardest battle is when you're against yourself. to be what you are not. to change who you are since you can remember. to be a better person though it hurts so much. it ain't that easy. never was and never will. you've been who you think you are for quite a while, been too comfort with it since like forever, and suddenly knowing it wasn't the way it should be. it hard. yes, it is damn hard. there are times when you just wanna give up. but think again, give up and end up in hell ? is it worth it ? or having such pain as hell to change and end up in heaven ? now that sound good. 

Turn to Allah. He’s never far away. Put your trust in Him. Raise your hands and pray. Ya Allah, Guide my steps, don’t let me go astray You’re the only one who can show me the way.